Today at school we got time to go out side and read and me and my friend mandee read on this bench thing and we started talking and around november  my brother tryed to kill him self and me and him are really close so it really hurt me and when he got out of the hospital he moved out (hes 17) and it really hurt me so today i kept thinking about it and how much i missed him and thinking what i would do or what would happen if he died and i started crying. Then my friend that i was with wanted to take me inside to get away from every one but she had to ask and  my teacher was being a retard and kept asking me questions and that made it worse so i went inside and cleaned up and before i knew it it was home time and my friend lauren was asking me why i was crying and i told her and she understood a little bit but that made me think how much one thing can do to mess you life up and how short life is and not to waste it .so i am going to make shure i wont ruin my life away to dust.